He is my Dom-not my boyfriend
This blog is about space, about being content of my dom not being fully available at all times, and days where sending a two word text is all I will get out of him. It’s hard in an online dynamic to have available time or even emotional time. The past two days I have been off work, and endless days ahead of me, to ponder and think. When this has happened before, I struggled, I ranted and I lost him. I fight with myself to not send starkly texts and think the worst. But as every other person on the planet, you can’t help but wonder if it would ever be the same.
So I came up with a game plan, last night... some of my best plans and schemes are made in sleepless nights. My game plan is to put his absence as a way to prove my submission.
My job as his submissive and one day hopefully full slave is to create for him a place of total sanctuary with no drama and no complaint -- just service and one hundred percent submission even when I have been missing him so much that it physically hurts.
That takes us back to the concept “he is my dom, not my boyfriend” this does not mean a lack of emotional support, if anything it means the opposite. I am not “in love” with him, maybe someday that would come about, but I do love him. I love him with total commit and faith, I desire all things good for him and is completely loyal. But he is not a boyfriend, he is more. More balanced, more logical, we know each other’s places in our lives and what we want to become. We strive on the future more than the present. And the hope of the future is what allows us to keep going.
This blog is about space, about being content of my dom not being fully available at all times, and days where sending a two word text is all I will get out of him. It’s hard in an online dynamic to have available time or even emotional time. The past two days I have been off work, and endless days ahead of me, to ponder and think. When this has happened before, I struggled, I ranted and I lost him. I fight with myself to not send starkly texts and think the worst. But as every other person on the planet, you can’t help but wonder if it would ever be the same.
So I came up with a game plan, last night... some of my best plans and schemes are made in sleepless nights. My game plan is to put his absence as a way to prove my submission.
My job as his submissive and one day hopefully full slave is to create for him a place of total sanctuary with no drama and no complaint -- just service and one hundred percent submission even when I have been missing him so much that it physically hurts.
That takes us back to the concept “he is my dom, not my boyfriend” this does not mean a lack of emotional support, if anything it means the opposite. I am not “in love” with him, maybe someday that would come about, but I do love him. I love him with total commit and faith, I desire all things good for him and is completely loyal. But he is not a boyfriend, he is more. More balanced, more logical, we know each other’s places in our lives and what we want to become. We strive on the future more than the present. And the hope of the future is what allows us to keep going.
Comments
Post a Comment